So, I thought I was doing a good thing last week by deciding to sit down and make a list of things we will need for this baby. Basically, I was wanting to divide things up into categories - must have's, want's, and don't really need it's. Well, apparently that is easier said than done. Because this hormone-crazed pregnant lady ended up on the verge of a break down.
How do you know what you really need? How do you know what's THE best? And when is it alright not to have the very best? What's a waste of money? And what makes you a horrible parent if you don't have it because you thought it was a waste of money? I could barely function.
I had also just been asked for about the third time in less than a week what the "theme" of my nursery is. I. Have. No. Flippin. Idea. And, at the risk of sounding like a complete moron, I didn't really know that I needed one. Yep, I said it. I just thought I could find things I liked and put them together. Maybe I'm wrong about that, too.
So, I found myself aimlessly clicking through websites getting more and more frustrated by not knowing what I thought I should know. I kept on picturing all of these other pregnant women and young mom's who seem to have it all together, while I clearly don't. They probably had their nursery theme picked out long before they saw the little pick positive appear on the stick.
I'm calmer now, but still a little concerned about how to know what to spend money on and what to skip. I've decided all major nursery decor decisions can wait until after we at least know whether we're having a boy or a girl. That way, I will only have half as many options to decide between. But, basically what I'm saying is, advice is welcomed, encouraged and begged for. I know this is the first of many rants/freak outs I will have. Some founded, many more not. But I guess that just means I'm transforming into a Mom, and if that's the case, I guess I'm okay with it.
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